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.about.me.



bORN 1980. BLESSED with a blissful life & loved-ones. MARRIED to my soulmate.iN-LOVE with my tuscon. oBSESSED with matching colors. aDDICTED to food & fun. oVERWHELMED with 'crazy' teens. and...LEARNING to love every moment of this blessed life granted by God.



mY moMenTs

ShangHai-nanjinG trip
 4th-12th november
Council Camp
 19th-21st november
Hoilday trip to...??
 26th -30th november

shopping list

 new digicam
jeans
earrings
watch

SoNgs

from this moment
here without you
i live my life for you

.my.chatterbox.





.my.friends.

nurul
aisHa
duRi
izzy
nora
effe
ana
fatz
era
tini
zany
shake
azreen
tooNie
mankul
aladYnna
izadnhana
uTTerLy oRange
 BLoGGeR fAn OnliNe

.my.past.moments.


December 2003 January 2004 February 2004 March 2004 April 2004 May 2004 June 2004 July 2004 August 2004 September 2004 October 2004 November 2004 December 2004 January 2005 February 2005 April 2005 May 2005 June 2005 September 2005 October 2005 November 2005 January 2006 February 2006 March 2006 November 2007

.my captured moments.


my.links.

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shutterfly
webshots
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fotopages


Monday, May 9


* Spaces in between *

Have you ever feel that you are in place that no one can get to.... an exclusive...or remote "part" of your life that even you can't comprehend... That's where I am right now...that place where I never thought I'd be...but somehow along the journey I wandered my way to...

I think I've said it before in one of my past entries ...but I'll say it again here (i've a thing for repeating myself and turning my words into a mantra)....that sometimes I feel scared to be too dependent on someone....family...friends....loved-ones.... Maybe thats why I'm who I am... I build this wall around me to protect my weak and fragile heart.... I make myself strong-minded more so to convince myself than anyone else that I'm capable of being independent....

But once the wall crumbles.....it will hit right to the core.... and it hurts real bad... more than I can take....So this place that I'm in right now is a rumble of mess..... its complicated..... its a place that even I can't comprehend....

Whatever it is it makes me who I am.... and who I'd become..... independent.....strong-minded...but with vulnerable heart....

I love you not on the conditon that you love me as much as I do......
I love you not on the condition that we will be together forever
I love you because loving you makes me happy......
But though loving you makes me happy...being with you makes me feel sad...


It's funny how things in life is such an irony....feeling happy yet sad ......feeling sure but at the same time uncertain...

So this place that I'm in I don't know how long I'd stay...and if I'd ever know the way out...but i know that one day I'd move on to the next..i'd reach that next stop along the journey.....but meanwhile i'm just wandering in the spaces in between.....

:: shares a beautiful moment :: @ 7:57:00 AM